I have to admit I am not a perfect mother. Sometimes I refused to spend time with my kids because I was too tired, even when I tried, I fell asleep during our play time. Sometimes I raised my voice to them when they were making mess even when I knew it was part of their learning process. Sometimes I ignored them because they asked me “why mommy?” for the seventeenth time in a row. Sometimes I fell asleep before them when I was supposed to be reading their bedtime story.
I am guilty of not spending enough time with them. I am guilty of raising my voice to them. I am guilty of not being the angel for them like I was supposed to be.
I have a lot of flaws… but somehow my girls still think I am the best mommy in the world. My girls were the one who taught me how to be a mother. It is tough. It doesn’t come with manual instruction. I just have to learn to do it with my instinct. The instinct that every mothers were blessed with. That is the magic of being a mommy. After almost 5 years being a mommy, I am still learning and trying to be a better person for them. I believe that is motherhood.
Every time I want to do something, one person will come to my mind..
She is my mother. I always think “What would mama do if she was in my position..” She is just so inspiring. The more I think about her, the more I know how much she had sacrifice for us when we were growing up.
Today, I would like to wish my maa, umi and all mommies out there a Happy Mother’s Day.
I love you, maa..
And if you are asking me whether I am having breakfast in bed served by my girls today, the answer is no. I’m oncall. I am not even spending time with them at home. Guilty as charged. But I brought the cards that Bella and Tasha drew for me to work today! Less guilt now 😝
Enjoy your Mother’s Day!