Tasha is Unwell

Tasha is not well since middle of last week.. She was ok initially until the weekend where she turned  super clingy like UHU glue. She only wanted me to carry her. I literally spent the weekend carrying her around. She’s not eating well. Only half of her usual milk. And a a few sips of Dutch Lady chocolate milk.. and mangoes!! Yes, mangoes. Haha.. Rice, porridge and all, she doesn’t want..

I suspected it was only viral fever and usually viral fever is self-limiting and it will heal by itself after 3 to 4 days.. but her fever persisted until day 5 and in the morning of the fifth day, she had nose bleed.. Literally a ball of blood clot obstructing her right nostril when she woke up from sleep.

So, what did mommy do?

I freaked out, of course.

Me: OMG! You think Tasha has dengue?? *cry a river*

S: Maybe it’s just the weather. Kan panas skarang ni.. or probably because high pressure from sneezing, then her small vessels break. Don’t panic..

Me: You think so?

S: It’s ok. We’ll go check her blood after this.

Me: (mumbling sambil doa) Please Allah, take away her illness. I’ll take her place. She’s a little girl. This is too much for her *drama queen is back!!*

So, we went to the hospital in the afternoon. To draw blood is another drama.

Initially the plan was mommy hold Tasha while my colleague, Dr Kogi draw her blood. But I was a such pain in the a**! Haha.. I kept asking her, “is it ok?”, “can you see the vessels?”, “you think get get blood in one shot?”, “can ah?”

Hahaha… I will slap myself too, you know!!

Since I had too many questions, my husband took over.

It was a success, single attempt. *Of course kan Kogi!! Haha..* ” Thank you for bearing with me :D

Later, the blood result came out. It doesn’t look like dengue. Phewwwww…. InsyaAllah, it’s just a viral non-dengue fever. Alhamdullilah..

Today I’m at home. Took EL. Hubsy has events in Putrajaya and JB, B is at school, the kakak that help me at home is also unwell. So, It’s just Tasha and mommy today. Hope she gets better..

XO

They Wanted Daddy..!

Hi all..

My life has been upside down for the past two weeks. I spent so much time at work, had to do some readings.. and less time for family. By that, I mean my girls.. I only sent them to school in the morning while they are still sleeping and come back from work late.. sometimes until 10pm. When I reached home, I still need to do some reading and all.. I need to focus on my work and study right now.

My husband has always been supportive. He will pick up the girls from school, bathe them, feed them and all. MasyaAllah.. May Allah grant him Jannah for all his sacrifices.. No complaint. He loves the girls and loves spending time with them. They had so much fun together. They went out for dates.. Hahaha.. Yes, daddy and the girls at MooCow!

And where’s mommy?

At the hospital..

I was busy with my stuffs until two nights ago, I wanted to put my girls to sleep.. and they refused me!! Both Bella and Tasha wanted daddy!

I cried in my heart.

It’s only two weeks and they forgot their mommy?

I guess we can’t have everything in life. One way or another, if you want to achieve something, part of your life will be sacrifice. Salute to all ambitious mommies out there, juggling work and family. I have a friend who completed her post-graduate study with kids and NO maid! That’s unbelievable!! Salute to all husbands and daddies who sacrifies for their family, taking care of their children while their wives is struggling to achieve their ambitions.

In my case, I just need to do some adjustment.. like less sleeping time (hahahah.. and more coffee probably..) and finish my study at hospital and spend more quality time with my girls (I need a date with them too!!)

That night, when Bella and Tasha rejected me was like a slap in my face. I can’t take it..

I need to change.

Wish me luck, ok!

X

Why Anti-Oxidant?

OK.. this is a super mega major late entry!! I promised to you I’ll write about the extra skin care regime I’m consuming orally.. it’s this one!!

Manja tak? Hahahha…

I’ve been taking this supplement for almost 6 month now.. and I like it. I was just a consumer until the supplier find out about it and put my face on the advertisement!! Hahah..

First of all, what is anti-oxidant?

Anti-oxidant is a natural compound in our food that helps neutralises free-radicals in our body.

*nerd mode on*

Free radicals are the “bad guy” and anti-oxidants are the “good guy”. A free radical is an atom with at least one unpaired electron in our body cell. Since it has lost an electron, it needs to stabilise itself by ‘stealing’ an electron from a nearby molecule.

Where does free-radicals come from?

Easy.. I found this from the internet..

Basicly, it’s all around us, in our environment!!

Now is the part where you should ask me.. “Is that my problem?”

My answer is “Yes, it is our problem!!” Haha.. This is because whatever the free radical touches and ‘steal’ the electron (please refer to the paragraph above!!), it will damage it!! (because one of the electron is stolen, remember?)

As an example, if the free radical touches the DNA, it can cause mutation that can lead to many diseases like cancer…

Do you get me?? It’s like a chain reaction, the more things free radical touches (and steal the electron!), the more cells will get damage.. until, it binds to… ANTIOXIDANT!!!

Taddaaaaaa…. Get it?!!

Thats why antioxidant is important!!

So basically, anti-oxidant is important as an anti-aging, anti-inflammatories, and it helps to boost the immune system.

To all the vain pots (and that includes me..) you must be wondering.. how does it helps with the skin, right? Easy, if you have healthy skin cells, you will have much less problems with pigmentations (hence the whitening effect and indirectly anti-oxidant will function as a sunblock!), fine lines and acne.

Get it??

Haaaaa.. that’s why we, mere mortals need anti-oxidant!

So, why I choose this oral anti-oxidant supplement?

It’s mainly because of the quality. It’s pre-packed into small sachets. If your anti-oxidant is in a jar, it will get destroys over time every time you open the jar. (Remember the free radicals in our environment?) So, pre-packed is to ensure the quality of the anti-oxidant is maintained!

Besides, it claims that it has so much anti-oxidant with super fruits and what not.. They just sounds good to me!! Haha…

and this one whole box will last me for 2 months :)

After 6 months of using it, I noticed my energy level is better.. and that means I needed less coffee everyday to keep me energised all day. Less frequent attack with flu symptoms, I believe it does help to build up the immune system as well, even if I fall sick, I recovered quite fast without antibiotics and my skin is less dry in general.

There’s a long list of the benefits of this product that comes with it if you bought this, and you will see, basically what it does is it helps to regulate the cells (whatever cells in our body) to function better.

Bear in mind, all anti-oxidant supplements must be taken continuously.. that is because the free radicals are also continuously produced in our body!! *duhh..*

OK, enough of this long lecture. Thank you for attending my science class today!!

XO

Happy Mother’s Day!!

Tomorrow is Mother’s Day!!
A day to celebrate all mothers out there for everything they have done for us!!
Today I’m oncall in maternity theatre, seeing all these mothers in labour reminds me to write something to share with you..
Labour pain!!
It’s crazy painful ok!!
20 bones getting fractured at the same time!!
Can you imagine??! NO, right!!
Trust me! It will be even worse if you need labour augmentation like intravenous oxytocin. I had that before during my second delivery. MasyaAllah.. All I did was praying for forgiveness and mercy from Allah and istighfar… That was what kept me going (before I asked the nurse to give me pethidine 10mg stat when the os opening was 8cm!! Haha..) Crazy, crazy, crazy intense pain.. I don’t even have a word to describe the pain.. Pain killers will only make me drowsy and it doesn’t really make the pain disappear. I woke up again every time the contraction started and that is 4 times in 10 minutes lasted for 30-40secs and all I can do is just pray for mercy from Allah…
The reason I’m writing this to all of you is because I wanna share with you the importance of learning what to expect during labour. I personally have met a few mothers that actually told me that they didn’t expect the pain was gonna be that bad!! My eyeballs almost popped out (literally speaking..) when I heard that statement.. Where did all these people came from? Masyaallah…
It’s important especially for new couples to attend antenatal classes during pregnancy. Learn how labour progress and how to at least ease the pain through breathing method.. Seriously, mommies!!
OK, I have a confession, I didn’t go to any antenatal classes because I kinda know what to expect during labour. I can still remember all these things that I learned during my housemanship in ObGyn. Until now, on and off when I see my pain in labour room before giving epidural, I still teach them the breathing method. So, I don’t really see the point of going to the antenatal classes.. Haha.. Until I was in labour myself..
I forgot to breathe!!
Yes, when it comes to my turn in labour, I forgot how to do it!! Hahaha.. Lucky my husband remembered!! He thought me how to breath in synchrony with my contractions!! (I secretly think he googled that on YouTube!! :D) Haha..
So, my point here is, every mommy should gain a little knowledge on what to expect in labour. You may not remember it all but at least the labour process doesn’t come to you as a surprise. And don’t forget to bring your partner who will be with you during labour, insyaAllah.. be it your husband, or your mother or your best friend.. Because if you can’t remember a thing, he/she better be!! Haha..
The beauty of giving birth is.. the pain just disappeared after you see your baby for the first time. When your baby look at you, when you hold your baby in your arms. You forgot about the pain.. totally! I’m not making it up.. Seriously. I don’t believe that before until I felt it myself. Subhanallah..
May Allah blessed all mommies out there for all their sacrifices, sweat, blood and tears going through labour pain..
Thank you, maaa.. I love you so much!!
Happy mother’s day to my dear maa, my mother-in-law.. and all mommies out there..
XO

Chicken Pox!!

Yes.. Both B and T are down with chicken pox!!

Well, I may write here “down with chicken pox” but to be honest, they are not “down” at all!! They are up and about, super active and cling to me like gam cap gajah!! Haha.. Alhamdullilah…

Last week, B had 3 spots on her face. No fever, just mild runny nose. Well, kids who stays in nursery are bound to have runny nose, right?! So, I didn’t actually take note about the runny nose. Even when there the spots on the face appeared, I still haven’t got any clue!! (doctor mommy here!! Hahaha..) I thought maybe it was just an insect bite, (or even scarier.. mosquito bite!!) So, I started to spray the whole house, and put mosquito repellant all over the place I can!! Until.. it turned into a vesiculopapular rash..

Papule = raised lesion on the skin

Vesicle = fluid- filled cavity

Therefore, vesicopapular = raised lesion on the skin which contains fluid!!

I know that spells T.R.O.U.B.L.E!

I mean.. chicken pox!

I immediately separated B’s stuff from T’s.. like their dirty clothes in separate laundry basket, towels hang far apart, no more sharing water tumbler, cutleries and lalala coz the virus, Herpes Zoster can spread via two routes..

1) air-borne respiratory droplets i.e. sneezing, coughing, runny nose..

2) Vesicle fluid: …. remember that skin lesion containing fluid!!

That dot.. is highly contagious. It will spread the virus if you have direct contact with the fluid inside it. That’s why I tried to separate their clothes and all…

But 3 days later..

Taddaaaa..

T has the same lesions on her trunk! Hahaha…

I don’t know whether to laugh or to cry.. but I’ve decided to take it in a very positive way.. it’s good that both of them had the chicken pox at the same time.. easier to manage!! :D

I’ve consulted my good friend, Dr Zahilah Filzah from doktorbudak.com , according to the expert, antiviral (i.e. acyclovir) only works if it’s given within 24hours of the appearance of the vesicles (Za, correct me if I’m wrong!) if it’s later than that.. there is no scientific evidence that shows the antiviral works. So, forget the medicine, we treat symptomatically only.

What does that means?

That means.. fever medicine is your child is having fever, calamine lotion to help reduce the itchiness, drink a lot of water, try to maintain good oral intake and hand washing is very important to reduce the risk of transmitting the virus.

We were supposed to go to Sabah with my husband because he had an event there but all our plan got cancelled because of these two girls with dots on their body.. Haha.. And I’ve sent the kakak who stays with us balik kampung because we thought we gonna be in Sabah -_-

Here I am having the best time at home taking care of these two angels, being a full time housewife.. even if its only for two days :)

Please excuse me, I’ve got a pile of clothes that needs to be iron, grocery shopping and preparing for dinner..  before my husband comes home. Phewww…

*salute to all stay-at-home-mom*

XO

Meeting Amenakin

Hi all..

How’s 2014 has been treating you?

Hope everyone is doing great!

I’m oncall today, blogging from maternity OT oncall room right now ;) Please God let me have a quite call today. My plan is to google more healthy recipes to cook at home. Haha.. Yes, that’s part of the new year resolutions!! I’ve been a good girl still (girl??). Attended my gym session regularly. Thank you S for taking care of the children while I’m away!! He has been so understanding and helpful. And keeps me motivated! (P/S I love you, S!)

On the other hand, last week I attended a ‘meet-and-greet’ session with Amenakin. For those who doesn’t know her, Amenakin is actually a Youtuber (is that what you called it?) She has her own youtube channel called Amenakin. Her real name is Amena from the UK. She vlog (vlog = video blog, I think so!)) mostly about muslimah fashion, how to wear tudung, make-up, cooking and also issues related to us, ladies and religious issues as well.

I started to watch her Youtube channel when I wanted to learn how to wear tudung.. Yup, Youtube was my guru! Haha.. To my surprise, I actually like her personality. If you watched her videos, you know she is a beauty with brain, kind-hearted and a mommy too! She’s just a good role model for young ladies out there.

Did I tell you she runs an online scarf business as well?  She designed her signature scarf called hoojab! It’s very simple, practical and covers our aurah. Click here to find out more.

Amena came down to Malaysia last week for a meet-and-greet session with her fans. It was hosted at Food Foundry in SS17, in PJ. That’s Amena. Beauty inside out, masyaAllah!And this is her husband, Mr Osama.

Both of them are super nice and friendly and humble. They have been married for 7 years and this is their first time leaving their children at home back in the UK. And they are still like lovebirds!! And fortunately, our seats were in front of her seat! Thank you Za for dragging me to sit in front! (Yes, that’s Dr Zahilah Filzah of doktorbudak.com) Haha.. Yes, she insisted to sit there. She dragged me! Haha.. and that beautiful lady on my left hand side is NOT Amenakin. But she looked like her (for God sake, I thought she was Amenakin initially!). That beautiful lady (did I mentioned that before?) is MyaZulkifli. She’s a student, model and make-up artist herself. Interesting isn’t it? And to be honest, she does look like Amena!!

Owh, and that empty white chair where Amena was seated before she was stolen by other fans! Haha..

I thought of waiting till the end before snapping pictures with her but OMG, it was too crowded and the rest of the girls didn’t seems to want leave her at all! I had to leave the place considering it was almost 10.30pm at that time and my husband already sent a picture of him and the children having fun at home! Haha.. (Yes, that’s how he hinted me to come back! Funny right? But it works all the time!!)

So, Amena, we shall meet on Youtube again, InsyaAllah!

XO

While I’m Oncall..

I'm currently at the hospital while writing this..
While I'm serving the community (cheewahh..) My husband will be at home taking care of our children. I'm really thankful because I can rely on him to take care of the girls while I'm away and not worry a thing about them.
Thank you, S…
And my husband will send me pictures of them having fun at home.. Mostly just wanna make me feel jealous, I think! Hehe.. Yes it works! Yes I'm jealous!
And this one just came in earlier today…
Tasha loves to crawl around the house. She can be found wandering around on her own, hiding behind the curtain, playing under the dining table, crawling from room to room.. This girl is really active. And for the past three weeks, she has started to stand and cruise.. the sofa is her favourite..
 
The picture above, that's Tasha under the dining table, trying to cruise while holding on to the seats, and check out B's expression.. priceless moment!
 
Thank you S for making sure I didn't miss this moment!
Will be home tomorrow after my handover rounds ;)
I miss you all..
 
XO
 

B is Turning 2!!

Hi all..

Today is B’s 2nd birthday!!

MasyaAllah.. Time flies really fast. My baby girl is already two years old.. (Or 2 ers yold, according to Bella..! Haha..) Alhamdullilah, I am really blessed having her and Little Tasha in my live. They are my source of joy and happiness and occasionally makes me crazy. But above all, they are my life!

See, big girl already.. dah pakai makeup!!

On the other hand, Little Tasha is turning 6 month old!! Yay!! You know what that means? Yup, weaning! She’s gonna start eating all boring, blended baby food until she’s old enough to eat our yummy food. I’m all excited to feed her.. at the same time, when Tasha is 6 month old.. you know what that means?

That means mommy is going back to work!!!

Tomorrow!!

Yes, I do miss work. And trust me, after starting work, I will cry to my husband telling him I miss the girls so much.. and that will last for about a week or two until I’m emotionally stable. Haha… If you see me at the hospital with flushed face or maybe teary eyes, yeah, maybe I just cried.. hehe..

Thank you for all the birthday wishes on Twitter. I’ve been receiving them since last night. And I actually told B about it.. and she just angguk2 and smile. I don’t know whether she understand whats going on or not…

We are gonna have a great day today, insyaAllah.. and hope you are too!!

XO

Out & About!!

Today I’m back behind the steering wheel!! Hehe..

It feels sooo liberating to be able to drive back my car.. Suddenly I missed traffic jams! :D

I really cannot follow the traditional pantang style. Cant go out for 40 days? How can a woman these days not go out for 40 days? What do you do at home?

I tried bengkung.. I walked like  a geisha with that thing on. Of course it’s good because it helps to hold the shape of your body from the tummy down to your hips. But it is so hard for me to bend and pick up my baby!! Remember, I’m a mother of two now (yay!!) and I need to be able to function as a mother.. So, I lasted only for a day with my bengkung.. Haha..

I then substitute my bengkung with a bodyshaper… much much better, I can walk and do daily work like a normal human beings. So practical!

During pregnancy, hormones like the progestrogens and oestrogens did effect our musculoskeletal system, mainly our abdomen due to the uterus expansion and the abdominal wall muscles, its called diastasis recti. The hormones also soften the connective tissue. Expanded uterus cause the abdominal muscle to separate and that one contributes to our back pain, even during post delivery. Thats why wearing a post-partum girdle will help with this problem. We need to support our spine for it to go back into its original posture.

One more thing that a post-delivery mother always forget to do is the pelvic floor exercise also known as Kegel’s exercise. Why we need to do this? Again, it is due to the hormones cause the ligaments to stretch (otherwise, how can a baby pass through the birth canal??) and loosen the pelvic floor. This problem will effect as many as about 60-70% of mothers post delivery. You will notice that you suffer from incontinence when coughing, sneezing, or laughing after giving birth. So, how do you do pelvic floor exercise? Haha.. it’s your job to find out about it!!

Back to my pantang story, as for now, I still don’t carry heavy thing due to all this loosen ligaments, thanks to my husband who helps me a lot with Bella and all other heavy stuffs. I still keep my socks on. I’m still on this pantang diet..

OK, I took a sip of coke from my husband’s glass the other day ;) But I can’t follow the strict no excessive fluid intake. I need to produce milk!! How larr??

I drink a lot of Horlick and Milo.. and not forgetting the hot ginger drink..

I’m already missing my high heels.. Cant wait to hit the gym soon!! X

My Labour Story..

Alhamdullillah.. I’ve safely delivered a beautiful baby girl who looks exactly like her father on Jan 19, 2013 at 1953H :) Well, it wasn’t like a typical movie type story where my waterbag broke while I was shopping (eventhough I kinda hope it would turn out that way!! Hahah..)

It was actually an induced-labour. My ObGyn had to induced me because my blood pressure is high and my amniotic fluid is getting less which is not a good sign. So, I was given 2 options.. #1: straight for LSCS operation (Lower Segment Caeserian Section) OR #2: trial of vaginal delivery with close-fetal monitoring..

I have set my mind to go for vaginal delivery because it’s easier taking care of vaginal delivery wound rather than operation wound. Pain is much much more managable post vaginal delivery. (Paracetamol is enough, not need high tech medications..!!) and as much as possible, I don’t wanna have any surgery that will prevent me from having 10 kids!! AHhaha.. Yes, if you had previous LSCS, maximum amount of pregnancy you can do is only about 3 to 4 because of the risk having uterine rupture and many other health issues.

So, vaginal delivery it is.. I prayed to God for safety of the baby and myself during delivery. Only God knows whats best for me..

After being reviewed by my ObGyn, I got a green light saying I can proceed with vaginal delivery.. At around 11am, that Saturday morning, I was started on oxytocin, a medication that is given thru the intravenous drip to stimulate my uterus to contract. Every 30 minutes, the dosage of oxytocin will be increased until I have a regular contraction.

Slowly the contraction started and the pain builds up. No it wasn’t a waterbirth this time because of my high blood pressure. My BP needs to be monitored regularly and my baby also needs a regular monitoring. Pain was getting more intense over time. I was on Entonox gas as my pain killer.. It’s actually a 50:50 mixture of nitrous oxide and O2. And I can feel myself getting dizzy and lightheaded, but not for long. When the cervix opening was 7cm, I just don’t think the Entonox works anymore.. and I requested for some pain killer injections. Got it..! But somehow, the labour pain is much much stronger that the effect of the painkiller!! Hahaha… All I can do is just doa and bear the pain.. And my husband was in the labour room next to me all the time!! I guess he was my painkiller!!

Around maghrib time, I feel like pushing, I know her head is down there!! My husband went for maghrib prayer for a while.. The labour room staff nurse checked on me and told me, “Hmmm.. dah boleh push dah ni doctor, tp Prof (my ObGyn) dgn husband doctor gie sembahyang.. Tunggu kejap boleh?” and I was like… “WHAT????!!!” Hahhaha.. that’s the worst thing you can tell a woman in labour ok!!

After about 10 minutes of waiting.. huh!! Both of them arrived from surau hospital. My ObGyn gown up.. Hubby is back next to me.. and my ObGyn told me push.. After 2 pushes, alhamdullilah my baby is out! (Or was it three times? Can’t remember!!) She cried.. I, urrmm.. didn’t cry but feels sooooo relieved because she’s alright! Alhamdullillah :)