Homesick!

I’m currently in Penang attending the Annual Scientific Congress of the Malaysian Society of Anaesthesiologist. That’s a mouthful of everything..

This is my first time way for the longest time ever from my family. Usually it’s only one night at the hospital during oncall and I’ll be home the next morning.. But this time.. 5 days and 4 nights! That is 4 nights of having the bed to myself!! The thought of leaving the children behind makes me sad, but my husband told me it’s gonna be good. I’ll get to rest, have some me time. It’s like taking a break from chaotic routine at home. I don’t buy that! He is probably happy having the whole bed to himself!! Hahahaha…

I got ready late for the airport, thinking that missing the plane might be a good idea, at least I can get extra night at home reducing my stay in Penang only for 3 nights!! (Hahaha.. Smart, eh?) But my husband’s driving skill is annoyingly skillful. We made it on time for the flight. Urrghhh.. So I had to leave…

It’s funny how I cry every time S left for outstation (he didn’t of course!) and when it’s time for me to leave.. it was still me who is crying.. Totally a cry baby!!

First night upon arrival in Penang.. I was too tired to miss anyone, I just slept like a dead log.. The next day, I had too much fun with my colleagues from Selayang Hospital. We went to Gurney Drive and ate like nobody’s business. At night, again too tired to think about anything…

Day 3.. daytime, I was busy with lecturers and all. Another round of night out with my colleagues to Batu Feringghi but I’m starting to miss my girls.. and S of course. I feel like my nights are too quiet. No little voice screaming around me. No Tasha’s little feet kicking my face in the middle of the night.  No Bella to touch my ears.. yes, that’s her weird but funny habits. She likes to touch my ears before going to sleep. Only mommy ears. Not daddy’s! Hahaha.. I’m starting to miss them..

I don’t want to talk to them over the phone or even FaceTime with them.. just in case they started to cry and I really don’t want to get S into trouble of consolling them. Even worse, if I started to cry. Hahaha…

That’s the whole gang just wasting time by the beach at Batu Feringghi. Waiting for sunset and dinner..

Tomorrow is the last day of the conference. And my flight back home. Yay!! I can’t wait to hug those little minions!!

In the mean time, I have my friends with me, just to keep my sanity intact! (or probably insanity!!)

Check out the rock on my fingers!! Photo taken at Baxter booth, MSA Penang!

XO

First Oncall

Last Sunday was my first time in UMMC. Obstetric theatre to be exact. It was only my day two going into the theatre and I was already oncall. First four days in UMMC was the orientation days.. (Yup, we were so disorientated, UM and UMMC is so big and we are so lost!) Then Friday was day one in OT, Saturday is a public holiday and Sunday my first oncall day!

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But thats how we roll. To be honest, despite all the experience of working, moving to a new place and unfamiliarity with the system definitely stressed me up. I forgot where the maternity building is, I had to google Gloria Jeans UM to find the building. All I can remember is the coffee place! My goodness!

After hours of stressing up for no reason, S brought B and T to the hospital to visit mommy.. There’s a playground next to maternity building so they can play there. Tasha had too much fun. She refused to stay still, all I get is this blurry pictures of her busy playing…

And that’s B, eating dinner with mommy. Yup we had a picnic at the playground.

Their laughter definitely cheered me up. Now no more stress. Hahahaha..

S said I mengada-ngada ;) As if you don’t know me, S..

Owh, and guess what.. I’m oncall again today. But feeling much much better!

XO

Hello UMMC!

Hi all!!

Guess what.. I’m starting my old new life, as a student! But this time, even worse, working and studying at the same time. *insert cry here* .. as if my plate is not full enough.

I’ve moved to UMMC to further my study. This is my first week, orientation week to be exact, hence the extra time to write to all of you ;) So far, it has all been great. The distance from home, the colleagues, the choice of food thats available inside and around hospital (if I had the time to go and eat! ;) ), coffee place (yup, that’s a criteria for a good hospital!)..

But the toughest of all is to fight for parking spot!! Hahaha… common issues in all government hospital I guess. The parking area is probably 1km away from the faculty. I’m saying goodbye to my heels. Hello flat shoes and owh.. Umbrella! Hahah.. I can’t believe I actually googled “pretty umbrella” and believe me there’s quite a number of pretty umbrella out there. All my life I only knew my dad’s golf umbrella! :D

Another solution to my parking problem is to get my husband to send me to work! Great! He can drop me at the hospital before going to work, and fetch me later in the evening. You know.. with the bike.. so we can be like the couple in that 80’s movie… Ali Setan!! Hahaha…

Gosh! So many new things going on with my life right now. I’m adjusting to it.. What I know for sure.. I miss this bunch from Selayang Hospital. That place is more that a work place to me. Selayang Anaesthesia Department is like my second family..
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These are just part of them, more family members not in the picture.. Selayang people.. I know you miss me too… or maybe not! Wahahahahha..

Wish me luck!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim…

X

Tasha is Unwell

Tasha is not well since middle of last week.. She was ok initially until the weekend where she turned  super clingy like UHU glue. She only wanted me to carry her. I literally spent the weekend carrying her around. She’s not eating well. Only half of her usual milk. And a a few sips of Dutch Lady chocolate milk.. and mangoes!! Yes, mangoes. Haha.. Rice, porridge and all, she doesn’t want..

I suspected it was only viral fever and usually viral fever is self-limiting and it will heal by itself after 3 to 4 days.. but her fever persisted until day 5 and in the morning of the fifth day, she had nose bleed.. Literally a ball of blood clot obstructing her right nostril when she woke up from sleep.

So, what did mommy do?

I freaked out, of course.

Me: OMG! You think Tasha has dengue?? *cry a river*

S: Maybe it’s just the weather. Kan panas skarang ni.. or probably because high pressure from sneezing, then her small vessels break. Don’t panic..

Me: You think so?

S: It’s ok. We’ll go check her blood after this.

Me: (mumbling sambil doa) Please Allah, take away her illness. I’ll take her place. She’s a little girl. This is too much for her *drama queen is back!!*

So, we went to the hospital in the afternoon. To draw blood is another drama.

Initially the plan was mommy hold Tasha while my colleague, Dr Kogi draw her blood. But I was a such pain in the a**! Haha.. I kept asking her, “is it ok?”, “can you see the vessels?”, “you think get get blood in one shot?”, “can ah?”

Hahaha… I will slap myself too, you know!!

Since I had too many questions, my husband took over.

It was a success, single attempt. *Of course kan Kogi!! Haha..* ” Thank you for bearing with me :D

Later, the blood result came out. It doesn’t look like dengue. Phewwwww…. InsyaAllah, it’s just a viral non-dengue fever. Alhamdullilah..

Today I’m at home. Took EL. Hubsy has events in Putrajaya and JB, B is at school, the kakak that help me at home is also unwell. So, It’s just Tasha and mommy today. Hope she gets better..

XO

They Wanted Daddy..!

Hi all..

My life has been upside down for the past two weeks. I spent so much time at work, had to do some readings.. and less time for family. By that, I mean my girls.. I only sent them to school in the morning while they are still sleeping and come back from work late.. sometimes until 10pm. When I reached home, I still need to do some reading and all.. I need to focus on my work and study right now.

My husband has always been supportive. He will pick up the girls from school, bathe them, feed them and all. MasyaAllah.. May Allah grant him Jannah for all his sacrifices.. No complaint. He loves the girls and loves spending time with them. They had so much fun together. They went out for dates.. Hahaha.. Yes, daddy and the girls at MooCow!

And where’s mommy?

At the hospital..

I was busy with my stuffs until two nights ago, I wanted to put my girls to sleep.. and they refused me!! Both Bella and Tasha wanted daddy!

I cried in my heart.

It’s only two weeks and they forgot their mommy?

I guess we can’t have everything in life. One way or another, if you want to achieve something, part of your life will be sacrifice. Salute to all ambitious mommies out there, juggling work and family. I have a friend who completed her post-graduate study with kids and NO maid! That’s unbelievable!! Salute to all husbands and daddies who sacrifies for their family, taking care of their children while their wives is struggling to achieve their ambitions.

In my case, I just need to do some adjustment.. like less sleeping time (hahahah.. and more coffee probably..) and finish my study at hospital and spend more quality time with my girls (I need a date with them too!!)

That night, when Bella and Tasha rejected me was like a slap in my face. I can’t take it..

I need to change.

Wish me luck, ok!

X

Why Anti-Oxidant?

OK.. this is a super mega major late entry!! I promised to you I’ll write about the extra skin care regime I’m consuming orally.. it’s this one!!

Manja tak? Hahahha…

I’ve been taking this supplement for almost 6 month now.. and I like it. I was just a consumer until the supplier find out about it and put my face on the advertisement!! Hahah..

First of all, what is anti-oxidant?

Anti-oxidant is a natural compound in our food that helps neutralises free-radicals in our body.

*nerd mode on*

Free radicals are the “bad guy” and anti-oxidants are the “good guy”. A free radical is an atom with at least one unpaired electron in our body cell. Since it has lost an electron, it needs to stabilise itself by ‘stealing’ an electron from a nearby molecule.

Where does free-radicals come from?

Easy.. I found this from the internet..

Basicly, it’s all around us, in our environment!!

Now is the part where you should ask me.. “Is that my problem?”

My answer is “Yes, it is our problem!!” Haha.. This is because whatever the free radical touches and ‘steal’ the electron (please refer to the paragraph above!!), it will damage it!! (because one of the electron is stolen, remember?)

As an example, if the free radical touches the DNA, it can cause mutation that can lead to many diseases like cancer…

Do you get me?? It’s like a chain reaction, the more things free radical touches (and steal the electron!), the more cells will get damage.. until, it binds to… ANTIOXIDANT!!!

Taddaaaaaa…. Get it?!!

Thats why antioxidant is important!!

So basically, anti-oxidant is important as an anti-aging, anti-inflammatories, and it helps to boost the immune system.

To all the vain pots (and that includes me..) you must be wondering.. how does it helps with the skin, right? Easy, if you have healthy skin cells, you will have much less problems with pigmentations (hence the whitening effect and indirectly anti-oxidant will function as a sunblock!), fine lines and acne.

Get it??

Haaaaa.. that’s why we, mere mortals need anti-oxidant!

So, why I choose this oral anti-oxidant supplement?

It’s mainly because of the quality. It’s pre-packed into small sachets. If your anti-oxidant is in a jar, it will get destroys over time every time you open the jar. (Remember the free radicals in our environment?) So, pre-packed is to ensure the quality of the anti-oxidant is maintained!

Besides, it claims that it has so much anti-oxidant with super fruits and what not.. They just sounds good to me!! Haha…

and this one whole box will last me for 2 months :)

After 6 months of using it, I noticed my energy level is better.. and that means I needed less coffee everyday to keep me energised all day. Less frequent attack with flu symptoms, I believe it does help to build up the immune system as well, even if I fall sick, I recovered quite fast without antibiotics and my skin is less dry in general.

There’s a long list of the benefits of this product that comes with it if you bought this, and you will see, basically what it does is it helps to regulate the cells (whatever cells in our body) to function better.

Bear in mind, all anti-oxidant supplements must be taken continuously.. that is because the free radicals are also continuously produced in our body!! *duhh..*

OK, enough of this long lecture. Thank you for attending my science class today!!

XO

Happy Mother’s Day!!

Tomorrow is Mother’s Day!!
A day to celebrate all mothers out there for everything they have done for us!!
Today I’m oncall in maternity theatre, seeing all these mothers in labour reminds me to write something to share with you..
Labour pain!!
It’s crazy painful ok!!
20 bones getting fractured at the same time!!
Can you imagine??! NO, right!!
Trust me! It will be even worse if you need labour augmentation like intravenous oxytocin. I had that before during my second delivery. MasyaAllah.. All I did was praying for forgiveness and mercy from Allah and istighfar… That was what kept me going (before I asked the nurse to give me pethidine 10mg stat when the os opening was 8cm!! Haha..) Crazy, crazy, crazy intense pain.. I don’t even have a word to describe the pain.. Pain killers will only make me drowsy and it doesn’t really make the pain disappear. I woke up again every time the contraction started and that is 4 times in 10 minutes lasted for 30-40secs and all I can do is just pray for mercy from Allah…
The reason I’m writing this to all of you is because I wanna share with you the importance of learning what to expect during labour. I personally have met a few mothers that actually told me that they didn’t expect the pain was gonna be that bad!! My eyeballs almost popped out (literally speaking..) when I heard that statement.. Where did all these people came from? Masyaallah…
It’s important especially for new couples to attend antenatal classes during pregnancy. Learn how labour progress and how to at least ease the pain through breathing method.. Seriously, mommies!!
OK, I have a confession, I didn’t go to any antenatal classes because I kinda know what to expect during labour. I can still remember all these things that I learned during my housemanship in ObGyn. Until now, on and off when I see my pain in labour room before giving epidural, I still teach them the breathing method. So, I don’t really see the point of going to the antenatal classes.. Haha.. Until I was in labour myself..
I forgot to breathe!!
Yes, when it comes to my turn in labour, I forgot how to do it!! Hahaha.. Lucky my husband remembered!! He thought me how to breath in synchrony with my contractions!! (I secretly think he googled that on YouTube!! :D) Haha..
So, my point here is, every mommy should gain a little knowledge on what to expect in labour. You may not remember it all but at least the labour process doesn’t come to you as a surprise. And don’t forget to bring your partner who will be with you during labour, insyaAllah.. be it your husband, or your mother or your best friend.. Because if you can’t remember a thing, he/she better be!! Haha..
The beauty of giving birth is.. the pain just disappeared after you see your baby for the first time. When your baby look at you, when you hold your baby in your arms. You forgot about the pain.. totally! I’m not making it up.. Seriously. I don’t believe that before until I felt it myself. Subhanallah..
May Allah blessed all mommies out there for all their sacrifices, sweat, blood and tears going through labour pain..
Thank you, maaa.. I love you so much!!
Happy mother’s day to my dear maa, my mother-in-law.. and all mommies out there..
XO